I am sitting here alone today trying to make sense of the shit in my head

[Mrs.ChuckBass]

or better yet, avoid relationships altogether.
for a long time.
I've noticed that when I am single, I have a ton of personal growth, and it slams to a halt when I'm in a relationship.
I'm actually super glad my SO is 3000km away and we only see each other a few days of the month - if he was here full time, my world would revolve around him and I wouldn't be doing all the things I'm doing now.

you don't need a man to validate your existence, revel in being single and enjoy being alone and just focus on yourself and the kids

Just take your time the next time you meet someone. You jumped into marriage way too fast last time. He was basically a rebound. Play it slow next time and you'll be okay.

You said that last time, too.

Instead of making definitive statements about the future, maybe just focus on the right-now. You never know what the future holds

I did say that last time & I thought that him being in my life exactly when he was was supposed to be. I now know better. It is true that I don’t know what the future holds, my friends say the same thing. Unless I can get to a point where I trust myself & then in turn can trust others. I shouldn’t inflict myself on anyone else.
Right now I can’t see myself trusting anyone not after the hell I’ve been through, twice.

[Bubbs]

or better yet, avoid relationships altogether.
for a long time.
I've noticed that when I am single, I have a ton of personal growth, and it slams to a halt when I'm in a relationship.
I'm actually super glad my SO is 3000km away and we only see each other a few days of the month - if he was here full time, my world would revolve around him and I wouldn't be doing all the things I'm doing now.

you don't need a man to validate your existence, revel in being single and enjoy being alone and just focus on yourself and the kids

Just take your time the next time you meet someone. You jumped into marriage way too fast last time. He was basically a rebound. Play it slow next time and you'll be okay.

I did say that last time & I thought that him being in my life exactly when he was was supposed to be. I now know better. It is true that I don’t know what the future holds, my friends say the same thing. Unless I can get to a point where I trust myself & then in turn can trust others. I shouldn’t inflict myself on anyone else.
Right now I can’t see myself trusting anyone not after the hell I’ve been through, twice.

That is my plan. I need to just be on my own. Figure out who I am, enjoy my kids, finish college and just do my own thing for awhile. I’m probably just bitter but I think it’s time for me to just be. And IF I get to a place that someone would add not take away from the life I want. Maybe but I have shit to do