I am sitting here alone today trying to make sense of the shit in my head

[mrsmacgiver]

Narcissists, and abusers, make you believe you are the crazy one.

[cellomom26]

I'm glad you left him, that is the most important thing. Not why didn't you leave sooner, not why did you marry him, etc.

You left him, and now you can begin your peaceful life. Be proud.

[deltathree]

I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you. You're not alone in this. It helps to talk about it and it's also very courageous. You have nothing to be embarrassed about. Take care and huge hugs.

[Bubbs]

Well, sitting here 6 years out of an abusive marriage of 15 years...I still miss parts of him. He was my dream come true, solemate, rescuer, my life, and everything. He turned brutally cruel towards me. But call it Stockholm’s syndrome or what you will I admired him because to me he was the most intelligent and capable person I’d ever met. I was just fooled. So I blame my continued desire to be with him on being brainwashed.

Thank you so much for sharing this. I really thought he was my soulmate. That he understood me in ways no one else has. I understand that it was all part of the narcissism and how he shows people what he thinks that they want to see. And he was abusive and I should be glad I made it out, and I am in a lot of ways. It is so much better for everyone that he is out of the house. All of that doesn't help my heartbreak though.

[Bubbs]

None of us are perfect. You are working on correcting your mistakes. You will be okay. You may be the inspiration someone else needs to take that first step.

I think that’s why I decided to share. If I can help someone else I’d like that.

[Deleted User 114]

I have nothing but love and respect for you. Sending *hugs*.. ♥

[LetHerGo]

Well, sitting here 6 years out of an abusive marriage of 15 years...I still miss parts of him. He was my dream come true, solemate, rescuer, my life, and everything. He turned brutally cruel towards me. But call it Stockholm’s syndrome or what you will I admired him because to me he was the most intelligent and capable person I’d ever met. I was just fooled. So I blame my continued desire to be with him on being brainwashed.

Thank you so much for sharing this. I really thought he was my soulmate. That he understood me in ways no one else has. I understand that it was all part of the narcissism and how he shows people what he thinks that they want to see. And he was abusive and I should be glad I made it out, and I am in a lot of ways. It is so much better for everyone that he is out of the house. All of that doesn't help my heartbreak though.

I had to see a therapist for a few years. She told me this was normally feelings. Not that I should go back but it’s normal to feel this way. Most people do not understand why abused women stay or go back. I do. It psychologically screws with you. My ex’s therapist told me my x was narcissistic and it was dangerous to go back home to him. HIS therapist whom I just met told me that.

I feel fortunate to have had people who cared around me. If I hadn’t had that support I might have returned.

[Reedusstalker]

Im really sorry you have been going through this. It had to be tough.

[bmw29]

Everyone makes mistakes but as long as you're learning from them you have nothing to be ashamed of.

[That'swhatshesaid]

Like I've told you before, we all make mistakes and the important thing is that you got out before it got worse. Don't beat yourself up. Just pick yourself up and keep moving forward. You got this!